In this blog are a few poems by some phriends who were willing to share their words about living with pulmonary hypertension. I can certainly relate to their creative expression. Can you?
The Dastardly Disease ~ by Merle R. November 2010
I used to be healthy; I used to be strong,
I used to work most all the day long.
And then it hit me without even a clue
I wasn't quite sure just what I could do.
I saw many doctors and then all those tests
I was diagnosed with IPAH and you know the rest.
Pulmonary Hypertension the dastardly disease
It’s rare with no cure and progression will be
It affects the right side of heart – the lungs big time too
Those arteries get constricted and give out on you.
It’s so complicated; makes it so hard to breathe
With having this dastardly pulmonary hypertension disease.
Shortness of breath are symptoms at first
And sometimes it feels like your heart just may burst.
That weight in your chest, fast heart beats oh my
And walking too fast may just make you cry.
Some may get dizzy, or maybe pass out
Some are so tired - what’s that all about?
Some cannot work and don’t understand why
With little exertion they falter not fly.
Some have edema, that swelling so bad
Retaining that fluid just makes one so sad
Some may have chest pain and may have blue lips
This disease is too serious and needs to be nipped.
Some may have Scleroderma, Sleep Apnea or HIV
Lupus, Raynaud’s Phenomenon or maybe COPD.
There can be some causes or no cause at all
That’s when our ph doctors need to make the right call.
We cut back on salt, smaller portions for meals,
Nutrition’s important and helps us to deal,
We deal with life changes a whole new life style
Remember it’s doable – we'll be here awhile.
Many will ask when not feeling too well
How do I cope, how do I dwell?
Do not despair and let me just say
There are treatments out now – with more on the way
With hope and with faith we have a good chance,
To fight this disease and maybe then dance.
Too many doctors; some specialist too
Do not understand what this ph disease can do
Luckily though and I praise God on high
There are ph doctors and nurses who do know the why
They treat us with wisdom and caring that shows
I thank them so much and I just hope they know.
They schedule those testings they start off real slow
An echo and blood work and others you know
A six minute walk, many PFT’s, oh gee
We scurry, we’re dazzled, we come then they see.
You may have a CAT scan, a bron-chos-co-py too
And there could be several others they may ask of you.
And then the right heart cath the gold standard of all
This proves the diagnosis is proper – they made the right call.
Some take an oral an inhaled or such
Some with IV’s and more, oh, oh so much.
Revatio, Adcirca, Letaris, Tracleer,
Ventavis, Tyvaso are a few that are here.
Then Veletri, Remodulin or Flolan may do
And some of these meds are almost brand new.
A hose in the nose; a tube in the chest
We struggle; we strive and hope for the best.
It is very doable this dastardly disease
With research abounding, there’s hope – so let’s breathe
Those researchers out there, those researching now
How can we help you, with what and the how
We’re counting on you to brighten our life
You give us more hope to end all this strife.
We’ll give you some blood or whatever you need
And hope for a cure of this dastardly disease.
The cost of these meds is abhorrently high,
We suffer, we struggle, oh my how we sigh.
Some insurance companies won’t give us a dime
The government too in their wisdom declines
Then say they will help – but they have special rules
Most are careless and thoughtless and actually cruel.
There are specialty pharmacies and pharma reps too
With guided persistence they know what to do,
They tell all those doctors those specialists out there
About the ph meds; how they need treated with care.
Some have special nurses and advocates now
Who teach the new patients the why, what and how.
They treat us so special it’s learning one on one
They do have support for us, their work’s never done.
There’s a ph community it spreads far and wide
We meet in some chat rooms and support groups with pride.
I've made many phriends and I value them well
Unfortunately though, and I do have to tell
I've lost ooh too many, that hurts thru and thru
This dastardly disease can do that to you.
With our phamily support system we’re able to cope
We share with each other, there is always hope.
Hope for a future, hope for a life
Hope we’ll endure without too much strife
Although it’s not cancer the symptoms may be
As bad, sometimes worse than that horrid disease.
PH is progressive and can cause us much pain
We must not let fear grip us, there’s still much to gain
As mentioned before and remember this now
Pulmonary Hypertension is doable – we’ll be here a while.
Let’s take a deep breath; so slow if you please
It can strengthen those lungs with this dastardly disease
In through your nose and out through your lips
Slow is the key – please remember that tip.
And last but not least, remember to smile
As smiles are contagious you see
And when you feel down; and bring on a frown
Turn that frown upside down just for me
Smiles make us happy and will help us cope
With having this dastardly pulmonary hypertension disease. :o)
PH Poem ~ by Catalina L. 2006
~To all of us who are dealing with this terrible disease, may there soon be a cure~
You came into our lives when we least expected it.
Because of you we are weak.
Sometimes unable to speak.
You are such a threat.
Our hearts throb and we even sigh.
But it doesn't mean we love you!
We are just trying to catch up with our breath.
We think of you night and day.
We wish you would go away.
We're stuck with you no matter what.
If you only knew the pain you have brought
You're not innocent or pure.
And right now there is no cure.
But we will not give up hope you see.
One day a cure there will be.
Just as easy as you came into our lives.
You will always come
But will not stay.
And we all hope and pray for that day!
"Breathe" ~ by Laura G., September 2013
Pumped full of life and this is true
The only breaths I have are few
The medicine runs through my viens
The best days I have are when it rains
If it's too cold outside my lungs are tight
If it's hot they just dont feel right
It's so scary when you lose your breath
I just wonder how many these lungs have left
I'm few of the lucky ones who can walk around
Without an airtank dragging them down
I'm still really lucky if I haven't already mentioned
But it really sucks to have pulmonary hypertension
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